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- Beyond Within

Been awhile since I posted anything here.  Don't really know why I'm doing it now, just felt I needed to write something somewhere I suppose.  Catharsis...

I'm unhappy at the moment.  It's something of a paradox, because if anything I should be happy.  I got a friend back tonight.  I went to fencing, and Amanda was there.  We've not spoken in over a year, and she hasn't been very tolerant toward me in almost four years I believe it is now, or is it three?  I've forgotten.

No matter, I was speaking with her tonight, catching up a little on life.  After that you'd think I'd feel better, relieved that I've got my friend back... but I don't.

Her life seems horrible to me.  Maybe it's me and she's happy.  Maybe I'm a judgemental asshole who should mind his own business.

But I am who I am, and I feel sorry for the way things are for her.  She's doing poorly in school.  Has no real direction in life except to probably join the military and has from what I understand, a jerkoff for a boyfriend.  Maybe he's great, I haven't met the guy, but it doesn't sound that way.

I knew she was once a beautiful, intelligent girl.  She was passionate and happy.  She still seems happy, so maybe I'm wrong... but I can't help but feel bad for her situation.  She's abandoned all hope of being intelligent or successful.

Why does this make me feel bad?  Sympathy?

No, guilt.

I feel as though I'm responsible.  My own stupidity and ignorance causes this.  Or at least, it seems like it.  There's nothing I can do.  I shouldn't feel guilty, I don't think I am responsible.

Scratch that, regardless, I feel like it was my fault.  I can't just watch in apathy, yet, there's nothing I can do.  My part is over, the curtain fell on that act already and I'm just a background character now, at least in her life.

"I feel so hollow"

Aethyr

Wasabi soup...mmm, yummy!

Heheh, how many guys do YOU know who can make wasabi soup? (It's not hard) None?  Now you do! Woo-hoo!

Seriously, this is why I shouldn't be allowed near wasabi powder, I make weird stuff like this...

but it's SO GOOD!

Although, I think next time it needs less cajun spice and more wasabi and curry powder, hmm...

I have discovered the secret ingrediant to making food taste good!  LSD....I mean Wasabi! (99.7% rip-off from Futurama)

In other (non-wasabi) news, I have been bogged down with my summer work lately.  With school approaching so soon (TUESDAY, AHHH!!!) I have no choice but to get it done?  What does this mean, my (un)failthful readers?  Uhmm, well, it means I'm updating this xanga for once because if I'm updating I'm not working so....And uhh, it means my first comic for august 3rd may (read: will) be delayed.  Sorry!  I'm hoping to finish this reasonably quickly so I can start working on the comics soon.  I've got story and stuff for the first one, but that's really more the easy part.

Anyway, more to come soon, and remember the website is www.freewebs.com/aethyr

Buh-bye!

Ril the Aethyr of Wasabi

Quote:  "I wonder what wasabi coffee would taste like?" ~Me

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See, I DO still update here on occasion!

Just got back from Charleston, South Carolina.

Hehehe, it must be the GREATEST city in the United States for a single guy.

Seriously, it's a 6:1 ratio.

Yeah, that's right, six girls to every guy.

I swear, you look on the streets on a weekend night and there's these groups of 10 or so girls (all hot no less) walking down the street and there's not a guy in sight (as soon as one goes outside, he gets tackled by the nearest chick and dragged back inside ;))

Too bad I was only there for a few days and couldn't get to know any of 'em real well.  Heh, s'okay, I hear they have a college there (and when it's school time, there's MORE girls)

I got some drawing and a lot of reading done while I was on vacation too.  Four nights stuck in a hotel room (without anime!!!) and an 8 hour drive both ways means I had a lot of time to do that.  Granted, my CD player took up most of the time, but I've only got 100 pages or so of ATKM and I got several sketches done, including my start on the first strip.

Now that I'm back in town, it's back to work.  I'm working on a new site design for my website (templates suck) as well as getting the first strip ready and getting all my summer work done.  This is gonna be a busy week I can tell.

Better get some sleep...

Ril

I've moved again, this time off a blog and onto a real website

That' right, The Nexus, the website for all my artwork and the Doujinshi I'm working on (named, of course, The Nexus) will be located there assumign everything goes according to plan.

Since I'm cheap, it's a free site located at www.freewebs.com/aethyr

Please visit and stuff.  I have a new journal posted there and soon my sketches and drawings will be up.  Once school starts I should be posting episodes of my Doujinshi, The Nexus, which is about Life in High School from my rather satirical and demented view.

It comes complete with bad artwork and all!  (well, it's not really that bad..I hope)

Anyway, I still might update here occasionaly, but for the real deal go to my website.

Laterz

Aethyr (Now known as Ril)